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May 3, 2009

Busy.

Work. Work. Work.

April 11, 2009

It’s A Beautiful Morning

It’s a beautiful mornin’, ahhh
I think I’ll go outside a while
and just smile
Just take in some clean fresh air, boy!
Ain’t no sense in stayin’ inside
If the weather’s fine an’ you got the time
It’s your chance to wake up and
plan another brand new day
Either way
It’s a beautiful mornin’, ahhh
Each bird keeps singin’ his own song
So long!
I’ve got to be on my way, now
Ain’t no fun just hangin’ around
I’ve got to cover ground, you couldn’t keep me down
It just ain’t no good if the sun shines
When you’re still inside
Shouldn’t hide, still inside, shouldn’t hide
Ahhhh oh! (shouldn’t hide) ah ah oh

(Do do waaa, do do waaa)

There will be children with robins and flowers
Sunshine caresses each new waking hour
Seems to me that the people keep seeing
More and more each day, gotta say, lead the way
It’s okay, wednesday, thursday, it’s okay
(Ahhh)
Monday, Wednesday, Friday, weekday, ah ah ohhh

(Do do waaa)
Ah ah oh oh (do do aaaa)
Wooooo oo oo oh oh oh ah wo do waa
Ohhhhhhh…..oh oh oh

*****

Life has been good. I’ve decided to let go of the negativity inside me and adopt an optimistic disposition in life. I’m happy just the way life is right now, no matter all the problems and challenges. Everyday is a beautiful day. :)

I love my friends. :)

Btw, happy birthday Criselle! :)

March 10, 2009

Bob Ong Quotes

for storage purposes again.

1. “Pakawalan mo ang mga bagay na makakasakit sa’yo kahit na pinapasaya ka nito. Huwag mong hintayin yung araw na sakit na lang nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo.”

2. “Kapag pinag-aagawan ka malang maganda o gwapo ka. Sumama ka sa mabuti, hindi sa mabait. Sa marunong hindi sa matalino. Sa mahal ka, hindi sa gusto ka.”

3. “Iba ang tinititigan sa tinitingnan.
Ang tinititigan, sa isang bahagi lang nakatingin.
Ang tinitingnan buong bahagi ang sinusuri.
Iba rin ang iniintindi sa inuunawa.
Ang iniintindi, pinipilit sa isipan.
Ang inuunawa alam kung bakit dapat ipilit sa isipan.
Kung kaya dapat:
Tinitingnan ang mga bagay para maunawaan
at hindi titigan lang at intindihin..”

4. “Kailangan mo rin pala ng lakas ng loob para sabihin mong mahina ka.”

5. “Sa mga taong di nagpaparamdam sa kanilang mga kaibigan e mabuting patayin nalang namin kayo para magparamdam kayo”

6. “Kahit ikaw ay parang bato na manhid at walang pakiramdam, mag-ingat-ingat ka naman. dahil kahit ganyan ka, hindi nasasaktan, kaya mo namang makasakit.”

7. “Lahat naman ng tao sumeseryoso pagtinamaan ng pagmamahal. Yun nga lang, hindi lahat matibay para sa temptasyon.”

8. “Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang taong malapit sayo. Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo.”

9. “Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawakan ng iba. ”

10. “Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.”

11. “Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.”

12. “Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung
walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.”

13. “Kung maghihintay ka nang ng lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din.”

14. “Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.”

15. “Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.”

16. “Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka. Kaya quits lang.”

17. “Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya..”

18. “Ayokong nasasanay sa mga bagay na pwede namang wala sa buhay ko.”

19. “Hinahanap mo nga ba ako o ang kawalan ko?”

20. “…mas marami pa s’yang alam kesa sa nakasulat sa Transcript of Records n’ya, mas marami pa s’yang kayang gawin kesa sa nakalista sa resume n’ya, at mas mataas ang halaga n’ya kesa sa presyong nakasulat sa payslip n’ya tuwing sweldo.”

21. “…madaming teacher sa labas ng eskwelahan. Desisyon mo kung kanino ka magpapaturo.”

22. “Nalaman kong hindi final exam ang passing rate ng buhay. Hindi ito multiple choice, identification, true or false, enumeration or fill-in-the- blanks na sinasagutan kundi essay na isinusulat araw-araw. Huhusgahan ito hindi base sa kung tama o mali ang sagot, kundi base sa kung may kabuluhan ang mga isinulat o wala. Allowed ang erasures.”

23. “Mag-aral maigi; Kung titigil ka sa pag-aaral, manghihinayang ka sa pagtanda mo dahil hindi mo naranasan ang kakaibang ligayang dulot ng mga araw na walang pasok o suspendido ang klase o absent ang teacher.”

24. “…ayokong sabihing susubok naman ako ng iba. Walang “iba”. Wala akong iiwan, meron lang babalikan. Kung meron mang iba sa ginawa ko, yun ay ang Bobong Pinoy. Kung may magsasabi man sa hinaharap na: “Sana nagpatawa ka na lang!” Yun ay opinyong handa kong tanggapin. Marami ang kaya at pwedeng gumawa ng mga isinusulat ko ngayon para sa mga mambabasa, pero ang gusto kong isulat at gawin para sa sarili, walang pwedeng tumupad kundi ako. Inumpisahan ko ang dialogue sa ikatlong libro para ipakilala sa mambabasa ang fiction. Umatras pa ‘ko ng bahagya sa ikaapat para mas maging kumportable sila dito. Sa mga susunod pa, pwede na siguro ako magtangka ng maikling kwento o nobela. Tulad ng pagsusulat ko, ayoko rin kasi malimitahan ang pagbabasa ng mga tao sa iisang klase ng libro…”

25. “Iba ang informal gramar sa mali!!!”

26. “Masama akong tao, tulad mo, sa parehong paraan na mabuti kang tao, tulad ko.”

27. “Kung kabayo gagawa ng libro mahirap maging palaging politically correct para sa mga damo”

28. “Kung ako ay isang walang kwentang manunulat, english ang isusulat ko, para kahit anu anu ang sabihin ko hindi na nila mahahalata.. Kaya nga ako nagsulat sa tagalog para maintindihan ng mambabasa ang lahat ng sinasabi ko”

29. “Wag magmadali sa pag-aasawa. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon sa hinaharap, mag-iiba pa ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong di pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang sa kaboses niya si Debbie Gibson o magaling mag-breakdance. Totoong mas importante ang kalooban ng tao higit anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan sa eskwelahan e nagmumukha ring pandesal. Maniwala ka.”

30. “Hikayatin mo lahat ng kakilala mo na magkaroon kahit isa man lang paboritong libro sa buong buhay nila..dahil wala ng mas nakakaawa pa sa mga taong literado pero hindi nagbabasa.”

31. “Kung paniniwalaan namin kayo na hindi naglaro ng tubig kahit na basa ang damit n’yo, kayo ang niloloko namin; Hindi kayo ang nakapanloloko.”

32. “Dalawang dekada ka lang mag-aaral. Kung ‘di mo pagtityagaan, limang dekada ng kahirapan ang kapalit. Sobrang lugi. Kung alam lang ‘yan ng mga kabataan, sa pananaw ko e walang gugustuhing umiwas sa eskwela.”

33. “Para san ba ang cellphone na may camera? Kung kailangan sa buhay un, dapat matagal na kong patay.”

34. “Iba ang walang ginagawa sa gumagawa ng wala”

35. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

36. “Titingnan mo ba ang basong kalahating bawas o kalahating puno?”

37. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

38. “Bakit ba ayaw matulog ng mga bata sa tanghali, alam ba nilang pag natuto silang umibig e hindi na sila makakatulog kahit gusto nila?”

39. “Pare, isa kang totoong tao at walang halong kasinungalingan. In English, FACT you, pare. Totoo ka. In English, FACT you!”

40. “Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: Magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo! “

41. “Mangarap ka at abutin mo. Wag mong sisihin ang sira mong pamilya, palpak mong syota, pilay mong tuta, o mga lumilipad na ipis. Kung may pagkukulang sa’yo mga magulang mo, pwde kang manisi at maging rebelde. Tumigil ka sa pag-aaral, mag-asawa ka, mag-drugs ka, magpakulay ka ng buhok sa kili-kili. Sa banding huli, ikaw din ang biktima. Rebeldeng walang napatunayan at bait sa sarili.“

42. “Tuparin ang mga pangarap. Obligasyon mo yan sa sarili mo. Kung gusto mo mang kumain ng balde-baldeng lupa para malagay ka sa Guinness Book of World Records at maipagmalaki ng bansa natin, sige lang. Nosi balasi. Wag mong pansinin ang sasabihin ng mga taong susubok humarang sa’yo. Kung hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon, hindi pa rin tayo dapat nakatira sa jupiter ngayon. Pero hindi pa rin naman talaga tayo nakatira sa jupiter dahil nga hindi nagsumikap ang mga scientist noon. Kita mo yung moral lesson?”

43. “Sabi nila, sa kahit ano raw problema, isang tao lang ang makakatulong sa’yo – ang sarili mo. Tama sila. Isinuplong ako ng sarili ko. Kaya siguro namigay ng konsyensya ang Diyos, alam niyang hindi sa lahat ng oras e gumagana ang utak ng tao.“

44. “Kumain ka na ng siopao na may palamang pusa o maglakad sa bubog nang nakayapak, pero wag na wag kang susubok mag-drugs. Kung hindi mo kayang umiwas, humingi ka ng tulong sa mga magulang mo dahil alam nila kung saan ang mga murang supplier at hindi ka nila iisahan.”

45. “Obligasyon kong maglayag, karapatan kong pumunta sa kung saan ko gusto, responsibilidad ko ang buhay ko.”

46. “Nalaman kong habang lumalaki ka, maraming beses kang madadapa. Bumangon ka man ulit o hindi, magpapatuloy ang buhay, iikot ang mundo, at mauubos ang oras.”

47. “Hindi lungkot o takot ang mahirap sa pag-iisa kundi ang pagtanggap na sa bilyon-bilyong tao sa mundo, wala man lang nakipaglaban upang makasama ka.”

48. “Hindi porke’t madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa.”

49. “Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority.”

50. “Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo.”

March 7, 2009

Livin’ life. :)

One day at a time–this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.

— Ida Scott Taylor

I love my friends. :)

March 1, 2009

Work hard, play hard.

Work has been hard. HARD. And we’re training palang, so I can’t imagine our workload by the time the real work comes in. It has been 2 weeks and I can say that I have never done this much studying in my life. I’ve never studied like this when I was still in college. And what makes it harder is that it is on a case-to-case basis. Every company have a different structure from each other, so our minds have to work for every single company we analyze. I just hope I’ll survive the training, especially the real work.

Friday night is our play time. Haha. I just realized that I’ve been drinking a lot every week for the past month or two. Haha. I think that’s okay since I deserve a treat for the hard work I’ve been doing.

Tsk. I looked away from the laptop for 5 seconds and my train of thought has gone away. Haha. Sabaw.

Anyway, this is currently one of my favorite songs. It’s so soothing to listen to. Hehe.

I remember the times we spent together
On those drives
We had a million questions
All about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me
Tonight

I remember the days we spent together
Were not enough
And it used to feel like dreamin’
Except we always woke up
Never thought not having you
Here now would hurt so much

Tonight I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holdin’ you, holdin’ you, holdin’ you tonight

I remember the time you told me about when you were eight
And all those things you said that night that just couldn’t wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed out way too late
I remember the time you sat and told me about your Jesus
And how not to look back even if no one believes us
When it hurt so bad sometimes
Not having you here…

I say,
“Tonight I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holdin’ you, holdin’ you, holdin’ you tonight”

I say,
“Tonight I’ve fallen and I can’t get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are
Holdin’ you, holdin’ you, holdin’ you tonight

February 13, 2009

Officially Employed! :)

I signed the contract yesterday. I’ll be working as a Research Analyst for RiskMetrics. It’s an international company that deals with risk management, corporate governance, and financial research and analysis. I’ll be assisting the US Research for the 2009 proxy season and will be tasked to review public disclosure documents and issue informed research and objective vote recommendations on routine items for US companies. Honestly, I have only a vague idea of what the job requires (I just copied the job description from the contract. hehe) but they said we will be trained so I just accepted the opportunity. It’s just temporary, I’ll be working there for a few months (3, I think) then the company will decide if they want to continue hiring me based on my performance. I think it’s kind of a hassle if they decide to let me go because I’ll have to look for another job again, but believe me the pay is good especially for a fresh grad like me. So there. I’ll start on monday along with my 3 other friends so it’s going to be great. :)

By the way, Happy Valentines everyone! :) I’ll be spending my day with my one of my closest friends. We decided not to be bitter today so we’re surely going to have fun.

Anyway, I found this from Gabbie’s blog in Multiply. It’s an excerpt from The Four Loves by C.S. Lewis.

To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, not even to an animal. Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness.

But in that casket–safe, dark, motionless, airless–it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable. The only place outside of heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all the dangers and perturbations of love is hell.

Change is coming. Yay. :)

February 8, 2009

Officially Unemployed!

Yayyy! :)

I’m gonna miss school but yeah, it’s time to move on :)

January 22, 2009

i can’t believe this

I MISS SCHOOL. :|

2 weeks till graduation!
but for now:
bumbumbumbumbum :)

January 16, 2009

Unexpected.

Yesterday, the sister of my friend died. It was totally unexpected, a freak accident. She was doing handstands and then she fell on her chest. After that her chest did not stop aching so they rushed her to the hospital. I don’t know about the specifics but at 4am the doctors said that they could not do anything anymore.It came as a shock to everyone, especially due to the cause of death. Imagine, she has always been doing handstands at home because she was a dancer in her school, then in this one instance everything just stops? Freaky.

Scary.

How long do we have left?

December 30, 2008

2009!

im not going to write a year-ender entry because i honestly do not want to remember the things that happened this year. i can say that this year is my worst so far. so many endings have occured: friendships, relationships, school. im glad that it has come to an end and for once i can really assure myself that next year will be the start of a new life. i am very excited [and scared] to start working and meet new people. the change that i have been avoiding in the past is what i need right now.

all things considered, i am still happy that such endings have happened. i may not have fully recovered yet, but i know that i will definitely be more careful next time. i think my childhood has ended this year. i used to believe in fairy tale endings and happily ever afters. now i know that these beliefs were the factors that made me weak and blind. the experience has definitely made me stronger although i am still in the process of recovery.

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to everyone!

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